11/10/12

I Need to Be Honest.

Dear Pussycats,


I'm not myself tonight.
While lying on my bed in my parents house in only a towel, I'm feeling a bit low.
You know those nights where you are just feeling blue? Or maybe more of an indigo? I just wish my insides matched my hair, because frankly I feel more like the blue man group.
Oh the woes of being a 19 year old with too much to do and not enough time to do it.
I am just exhausted all the time and I need a vacation. Luckily I have a marvelous three day weekend ahead of me, which of course means new posts and what not.

I think I'm rambling and I probably just need some sleep.

or some fresh pajamas.

I just am very hard on myself, I want this blog to be GREAT, I want everyone to love it, I want people to read it and give a fuck fruit, but Im just lost trying to figure out how to do that.

I just wish my hair was naturally coiled like a mermaid, and that I had the frame of Audrey Hepburn, the mind of Sylvia Plath, with the humanitarian nature and gregariousness of Jacqueline Kennedy Onasis.

I wish my grammar was better and that I could speak French fluently.

I wish soy milk was readily available everywhere I need.

I wish my lips never got chapped and that lattes never went cold.

I wish my favorite television series never got cancelled and that my closet would refresh itself like a high-speed web browser.

I wish I had a cup of chai right now. And that it was thanksgiving, now.

I wish I didn't have to take finals
and I wish more personal things in my life would just resolve themselves.

I wish my bra's fit correctly and that I didn't sound so greedy.

I wish I never had to ride public transportation again.

I wish my feet were covered in lavender lotion and in fluffy pink socks.


I mostly just wish I had more time.
(does anyone know where one sassy redhead girl can get a time turner??)

Sorry I just had to get a few things off my chest.


Sorry if this is TMI, but its my blog and I'll do what I please.
Have a great evening cause I'm just gonna be a little mopey okay?
xoxoxo
Caelan

2 comments:

  1. Seems like you have a lot on your plate.. I know its hard to do but take a mental health day it will clear your mind honest to god :)

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  2. Ugh, I love you a lot. Stay strong and stay sassy. And I'm here for you.

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